Beliefs in Abeyance (was: The L.A. Times on Richard Dutcher)

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I began all the following as a reply to friend and visitor Hydralisk in my last post - but obviously this is so voluminous as to only issue a Warrant for an Entry. By the way I just installed a “commodore 64″-like theme I found - you can try reading this entry under that theme with this link.

Hydralisk, having missed your intended irony in a post at your blog recently (and making a fool of myself - no one will see this; I requested he take down my mislead comment), I’m not sure what tone to read in your comment. But, thinking anyway that I might see some clear arguments and implications, and whether I’m really responding to your comments or not, here are my thoughts:

This is why I personally make a point of believing in everything everyone tells me about anything unless I can produce proof to the contrary.

Surely that’s irony. Everything is true until disproved? If you mean that seriously I’d have to call it a straw man, as nobody argued that.

One of the mormon Articles of Faith is “We believe all things..”; which I don’t believe is literal: rather it is a statement that we believe anything is possible. As Nephi put it: “If God had commanded me to do all things I could do them.” So whatever idea we hear, no matter how outlandish, it never does any harm to think: “That could be true, that could be possible.” (By the way, this is a very effective tactic to deflect criticism. If someone tells you that you are an infantile demagogue bent on world dominion, one appropriate response is “That could be true.”) This is neither belief nor disbelief: it is holding belief in abeyance, pending any further experience that would seem to either validate or invalidate the idea.

And happy not all the time - maybe not even a lot of the time? - I’m sorry if that is so. God knows (and I admit I’m saying this to an avowed atheist) that any person’s life can be that way - for a lot of people there isn’t ever even a glimmer. There have been times I wondered where the glimmer is. And I would never presume to tell anybody who suffers that they simply don’t have enough faith (the all too common, too abstract, trite solution of well-meaning but misguided mormons), or that they should simply throw out anything that seems to them to go contrary to religious belief.

All religions are true? But that’s an extension of the earlier identified ironic straw-man. Of course truth, assuming it were absolute, could not be both absolute and relative: the same absolute question being true for one person and false for another. (Although strictly, there are provisions of mercy in mormon belief that can make that effectively true for individuals who for whatever reason never heard, or were never able to cling to, The Truth, as mormonism preaches it.)

Expressions of certainty in belief could be called arrogant? It could be (you observe here the use of the aforementioned deflective tactic). But I see unfortunate implications there. It would be arrogant to claim a religious belief or experience to be true if that belief could not possibly be true; that would be arrogantly seeking to prove the unprovable. But how could it be arrogant to conclude that something is or could be so, if it is also not arrogant to conclude that something is not so or could not be so? Both positions operate outside of what can be proved or disproved, so they must both be either arrogant or not arrogant together; not one the one and the other the other. So much for that contradiction. If a religious claimant truly did state “Even if this is not provable, I still know it is true”, I might agree that is arrogant. But I’d have to say at the same time it may be arrogant to claim someone cannot know it is true. So how about dropping either question and simply focusing on experience - sensory memory, feeling, apparent cause and effect etc?

The experience I argue for is that certain religious practices will lead one to happiness, and that this experience of happiness can be seen as proof of a loving God allowing us to experience grace and joy in our lives. Such a claim cannot be rhetorically proven true or false.* Such a claim is not an attempt to give proof, rather, it is an invitation for others to run the same experiments which gave the person witnessing their basis of belief - their own feelings, what they have experienced, what they have felt, what it seems to them has been divinely given or communicated to them as a result of their sincere efforts to live in a way that tries out the proposed truths.

Mormonism has doubt built into it. Mormons (ideally) are completely capable of turning everything they believe on their head, pending further revelation. This is in the Article of Faith that “..we believe that He [God] will yet reveal many great and important things pertaining to the Kingdom of God.” Contrary to what you conclude (and if you mean this as comic irony, I don’t see the utility of the punch line), nobody is about shifting any burden of proof (or disproof) onto anyone - Smith himself said he doesn’t blame anyone for not believing him; that he wouldn’t believe it himself if it hadn’t happened to him. To be rather blunt, it seems to me that atheists may usually be more concerned about proof or disproof than believers. I’ve started reading an article in this month’s Christianity Today claiming that the philosophy of verificationism (the burden of proof or disproof) was quite in vogue one generation ago, but that it died in part because its adherents realized verificationism itself could not be verified. Apparently the philosophy may be an undying favorite, as (CT also claims) it is the basis of a recent spate of best-selling books arguing for atheism.

This talk about being privy to proof that angels pass out golden books to farm boys**, this is rooted in more of the same straw man that anyone should believe anything without proof (or disproof). Of course nobody can prove Joseph Smith had any golden plates. That goes right back to what I began with: of course there isn’t proof. To say (as I have) that experience is the proof of religion, and that I know certain religious ideas to be true, this can only be to say: this is my experience. This is what I feel about this. I’m certain I’ve felt this (what I explain or believe to be the Holy Spirit or Holy Ghost), and all the evidence seems to me to show that this religious explanation (the teachings of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) is the reason.

There have been times - and still are - where I ask exactly what started this whole discussion, the same question Dutcher reported asking himself in horror: “What if it all isn’t true?” I have only to think on my experiences to dispel that doubt. If everything I believe is wrong, this is still my experience: it all seems to be the foundation of all the genuine happiness I have ever known, and more than that, the foundation of overcoming every unhappiness that I so far have.

Nobody is proving or disproving mormonism. For all I know most or all of what I believe about my religion could be utter malarkey. I don’t care. It’s doing me good, and I’ll keep it, thanks. Amen.

Meanwhile, I still open the discussion on religion, so long as it focuses on experience - so long as nobody tries to steer the dialogue into any nonsense questions of proof or disproof. To be rather blunt, looking for signs - and I would call a quest for disproof a quest for sorts of anti-signs - it’s exactly the kind of nonsense the Bible itself (never mind the Book of Mormon) frequently throws down. Trying the experiments of religion, that is the point - and I’m not out to say the experiment has to work for everyone, either. Obviously, I’d like it to work for you. That’s my religious bias. But I don’t know enough about you yet ;) to know whether I think I’d even suggest any specific experiments supposed to be tailored to your life, and I’d have to first prove, er, that is, substantially provide a basis for a belief in the probability of the truth, that I care enough to take seriously any and every thought you have for and against belief. Or unbelief.

*never mind that mormonism urges its adherents to avoid rhetorical, read contentious religious discussion, and instead focus on attempting to communicate in a way that invites the Spirit of God

**which, by the way, as stupid as the story may sound, is exactly what I love about it - the Lord works through the weak and simple, and by small, humble, and even absurd means brings about good - the God of all creation was born in a stable? Divine truth was given to a fourteen year old, uneducated farmer?

The L.A. Times on Richard Dutcher

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This article at the L.A. times came to my attention.Put your hands up..

(No, this film still is from Brigham City.  It’s just a great still of The Sheriff.)

My thoughts:

First, I didn’t find FALLING to be “spiritually disquieting” (or causing unease or anxiety). It opened some very probing questions, which, personally, only led to very assuring answers for me. And the film as a whole moved me.

Second, I don’t buy the line that Mormons are embargoed from seeing R-rated films. Bleh. Can this myth please die?

And thirdly and waxing philosophical, as for this quote of Dutcher wondering “what if it’s not true?” -

That surprises me. I don’t expect religion to leave me doubt-free. It’s clear the Savior had his profound doubts just before enacting the atonement. In my book, doubt and questioning, looking for answers - that’s the soil for faith and belief. It was certainly where Joseph Smith began his journey. Proof isn’t the point. You can no more disprove any point of religion (for example the existence of God) than anyone can prove it.

The results of living your religion are the proof. Meetings, taking the sacrament, service, study, testing the word of God. You try the experiments; and do the results make you unhappy or happy?

If you’re not trying the word of God - if you aren’t going to church, if you isolate yourself from your religious community, for starters - you won’t get results. It’s easy to conjecture there’s no merit to a theory you aren’t testing.

And much of the test is what my service or involvement can contribute. As a Bishop put it to me, he never found any ward (Mormon congregation) he liked until he stopped focusing on what others were (or weren’t) doing for him, and started focusing on what he can give.

I see friends who begin expressing doubt, mere luke-warm feelings, or even disenfranchisement, with the church, the people in their ward and the things they believe and say, and this all happens at the same time they’ve stopped attending church. Guess what? What these misguided people around you need is for you to go to church and present your take on things in a positive, non-threatening way. (And I know these friends have good and enlightening things to say.)

If others may not be seeing the light, how about shedding some of your own? The Mormon church is designed to informally acquaint us with each other’s insights. If there sometimes isn’t much insight, there’s even less if people nonplussed with that fact keep on waiting for the situation to change - without realizing they can change it. Without realizing they can never know how they positively impact others. There are many people in the LDS religious community who have no idea how they’ve positively impacted me.

Did Jesus walk the streets during his ministry visiting the sick, the poor, the social outcasts, the odd ones, the unwanted, all the while asking himself “What am I getting from these weirdos, what’s in this for me?”

Religion may not be thrilling very often, ergo the command to “endure to the end”. I’ve found that any time I give up the endurance test, again, I feel empty.

Never mind I’d tell you like many a Mormon I know it’s all true. Which I do. My doubts are about what this religion can actually do for me (the acknowledged paradox being that I shouldn’t just be in it for me). I’ll always be figuring that out - and those doubts are exactly what lead me to keep trying things out.

So cool..

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I’ve mentioned this electric sheep screen saver. Here’s one mpg from it.

I may find a way to batch convert them and incorporate them into the blog design. That won’t make it impossible for you to read.. :) Click either “play now” or “play in popup” to see it. If either of those don’t work, click the download link and have a look at it in Windows Media Player.

The screen saver has downloaded a bajillion of these goodies into its cache on my machine. Eye candy. I think this one is morphing between four different “sheep” IDs.

 
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More on Truth

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Referring to the previous entry, good luck with the truth anyway if the internets are against you.

Wow.  Bizarre twists on meaning become dominant and obliterate everything else.

(Except for one brilliant article pointed it out, and I’m posting about it, and you’re reading it.  Maybe it is always free or bound to be free.)

The Windows People on Strong Truth

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Ah ha ha!

The truth will make us strong.”

I’m waiting for more.  Please.  Feed me another verse.  I’ll start compiling it into a Windows Bible.  Not that there isn’t at least one already.

More test video - Flash vs. Quicktime at x720- resolutions

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At the same image resolution, Flash’ latest codec (On2 Vp6) at best quality produces ten times smaller file sizes than Quicktime! Sheesh! If the image quality is the same, Flash clearly wins for file size. As for audio, Flash uses an mp3 codec (I don’t know which) and Quicktime won’t - I’m using AAC. I’m guessing Flash uses LAME, and if this codec sound quality test is a good guide, audio quality between them is the same (usually excellent at ~192kbps).

The following clips alternate Quicktime and Flash format at the same resolutions, lower resolution each round. I’d like to know how these load for you and how you think the formats compare in appearance.

The last video in my last post should be the first in this, as I’m comparing it now to the same resolution (720×540) in Flash format. Please watch it again (link) before watching the first video in the following list. Then for each in the list except the last two, I suggest clicking “play in popup window”.

 
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FLAVOR ARCHAEOLOGY

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Here is a script for something I’m going to shoot soon - my son will star.

Showbiz Pizza Redux

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My brother found (or passed along) this disturbing scream of a business someone did with the Showbiz Pizza Characters.

Warning: PG-13. Perfectly shames the source material without losing much for the dignity of the characters made to sing it.


LOVE IN THIS CLUB from ( *_* ) on Vimeo.

Four Quicktime HD export test clips

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The end of this entry has buttons and links to play any of four different test clips (each of a bird and/or my son “Mago”).  I’d use the “play in popup” link first, starting with the last (the smallest).

The first clip is 1920 horizontal lines by 1080 vertical lines in the Sorensen 3 codec and some blah (I’m guessing) audio codec (Sony Vegas Pro lets me export to Quicktime, but not with AAC. Why?).

The second clip is 1920 x 1080 by Quicktime Pro (from an uncompressed .avi I exported from Vegas) with the H.264 codec (It seems that’s Apple’s newest video codec? - which I’m only guessing gets better mileage than Sorensen 3?) and with AAC audio at 192 Khz.

Both those files are blasted huge (45 to 55MB for a few seconds!?), so I’m realizing I just gotta sacrifice some video and audio quality for more compression..

The third clip uses Sorensen 3 and some crummy audio at 1280 x 720 resolution.

The fourth uses H.264 and AAC (like the second) and is 720 x 540.

Again, click “play in popup” to play any of these - I suggest the last one first - I wonder if the others will even load without a lot of patience..

For anyone curious I’ve started putting up notes on video encoding/distribution in my wiki (more - maybe a lot more - could aggregate there over time - I’ll see. The page title is far broader than the video notes there now).

 
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The Electric Sheep Screen-saver

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I ran across this today and tried it - so worth it.

It’s a screen-saver that does mutating, “genetic” computer-generated animated art for your screen-saver, and distributes these across the internet to everyone else who has the screen-saver installed, and users can vote for or against the various “electric sheep” (up arrow key votes yes, down votes no) so that cooler ones get promoted.  I took the following image from the sites gallery of current images (which fluctuates - they render new “sheep” images from user’s machines during idle time/bandwidth) and scaled it up - it’s a desktop now.

This is a link to the image because the thumbnail isn’t working for some reason.

I love that MATRIX screen-saver I found and will probably go back to it from time to time.  Meanwhile, this.

World War II US Propaganda Poster Archive (a world going by..)

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Perusing the blog of a friend’s friend with Flikr photographs of posters in a WWII museum led me to look for this treasure - man, I love this.

http://digital.library.unt.edu/permalink/meta-dc-422:1

There’s a larger archive of them at that domain.  I was moved by this one displaying a painting and poem, An Open Letter to the Unconquerable Greeks.  And intrigued by this one.  I haven’t perused the tenth of these posters probably.

Where has the world gone that gave so much place for posters like this?  Nowadays so much of it is nay, nay, America the evil, the guilty, and crazy delusions that we should do things like give our enemies the right of American citizen trials.  Uh.. they aren’t American citizens, and they kinda want to destroy our country?

And about that last poster, are folks careful about what they write in war time anymore?  Not so many any more, and not so much.

Rebuttal to a population doomsday prophet

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My pappy wrote this excellent editorial (funny also, I think) published in the Roanoke Times.

Blaster Master - Title Screen - Remix (nintendo)

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[Update: this music has been revised and re-posted]

In reference to Pilcrow’s prescient request, I now present a remix of title in subject from the Nintendo 8-bit era of glory. The overlaying melody on this thing (I argue) makes the work substantially different enough from the original that this is a new work, which I provide for your download.

(Download mp3, ~2.5MB)

This combines work done in Melodyne and Cakewalk with a nintendo sound font.

For an idea of this game (or a strange nostalgic glimpse), here are several YouTube videos -

I don’t like the weird video intro for this one, but it’s the only thing I find that gives the game title sequence (without a painfully elaborate or nerdy uber-over-narration) from which this title remix was built:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=hTl1gTTOFNA

Level 1 play-through:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Wakyt-KtoBU

For the excellent finale music and sequence, skip to 2:44 in this one:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=Ct1Ins6oZY8

Adobe “Safecast” spyware shut down my legal photoshop install

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My wife has a legal copy of Adobe CS2 purchased from BYU Bookstore when she was a student at BYU.

Today, mysteriously, every time Photoshop would boot up it would close automatically, no questions asked, no statements made, no crash - just.. gone.

Exasperated that reinstalling it and several other things didn’t fix it, I started looking through Windows system services one by one, googling them, and shutting down ones that I don’t want (I want a way to make those not start - there must be some kind of service blocker tool out there..). I ran across one entitled “Adobe LM Service”, which starts automatically at system boot, and googled it. I found this page, which informs me that the cause of the problem is spyware - which was installed by Adobe with CS2.  It says: show

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